Teegan

My great nephew is 5 years old and he's a handful, but I love him like crazy! Tonight I went to pick him up after he spent a week with a family friend. Since the day he was born, I've always grabbed his chin and told him it was mine. Whenever we see each other we "trade" chins. One of us always says's "Where's my chin?" to the other and then we trade.

Tonight I said, "Teegan, I've missed you so much and where's my chin?"

He said, "I have it right here. I've been holding onto it for you. I'll give it to you." As he grabs his chin and pretends to give it to me. "It was so sad sometimes and it missed you so much that it cried."

"Oh no!" I said.

"Yeah, it really cried, but I said, 'It's okay buddy, it will be okay." "And now, it's happy again and you can have him back."

Is it any wonder why I love this kid?! He's awesome!

How many more?

One of my cousin's passed away this weekend. I honestly didn't know her that well. She just turned 56 so she was quite a bit older than I am. She died of cancer. The horrible, wretched disease that has taken so many of my family away from me. I hate it.

I plan on going to the funeral, which is on Thursday, which is also my birthday. At work today some of the girls and I were talking about funerals and I realized that I've been to way too many this year. I didn't go to two of these because it was during the time that my sister was so sick, but this is the list of people who have passed.

The list for this year:

A Co-worker's wife - Breast Cancer

Bo Johnson - Cancer

Kathy Tollett - My sister. Feb. 13th. - Cancer

Jakki's Grandmother -Not sure of cause, except perhaps age.

Rob's father - sudden heart attack

Rob's wife - private tragedy

And now my cousin.


Honestly, I'm ready for some good news, some good things to happen. Seriously.

I want to write but...

I want to write about the last month, but I don't quite have the energy to do it yet. All I can say right now is that I am tired. I feel like I've been worked down the very core of my being and I have nothing left to give right now. I have no motivation, no spark of energy or interest. I know that's probably just a part of the greiving process, but I can't help it right now. It's just where I am.

I feel like I haven't even really begun to process Kathy's death yet. I feel numb and like I'm in a limbo state of mind.

Just going to take it one day at a time. I guess that's about the only thing I can do right now.

I think I found the cure for grease stains

So the other day I was eating a taco and it was kind of greasy and I got some grease on my shirt. Ugh. The bad thing was that I did not realize it until later. A set in grease stain sucks, right. So I washed the shirt, but the stain did not come out completey. Darn, another shirt ruined. Yesterday, I Googled "How to get rid of grease stains" and something unexpected came up. TONS of people said to pour BABY POWDER on the stain and let it sit on the spot for at least 12 hours.

Baby powder?? What? Okay, well, I have baby powder at home and so I figured it wouldn't hurt to try. Last night I layed the shirt out, grabbed the powder and put some on. I just used enough to cover the spot well, it wasn't a huge pile. I let it sit on there overnight and then I brused the powder off this morning. I wish I had a before and after picture, but I didn't think of it until now.

Even after just brushing the powder off, it looked like the stain was gone. I washed the shirt and hung it up to air dry. (Don't want it to shrink) It's not completely dry yet, but I keep checking on it and so far it looks like the stain is completely gone! Awesome!

If you try it let me know if it worked for you.

It's time...

to start over. Another year gone and this one went faster than any previous year I can remember. Some people might not think that time can speed up, but I think it can. Maybe it was a good thing. Maybe 2009 was just a bridge year. It had to happen to get us to 2010.



So, here we go. Bring on 2010. I'm ready for a new year.

The Monthly Call...

The Monthly call is when my family gets "together" on a conference call. This call includes my mom, my sisters (Heather, Kathy, Roni & Christine) and my nieces, (Val, April and Sarah). It's nice, but do you know how hard it is for NINE women to not all talk at one time? The call can get a little much after a while.

When my mom got so sick in October we all decided that we needed to start getting in touch more. My family is not a typical family and so we're not as close as other people. It's okay, it works for us though.

Anyway, it's amazing how fast this past month has gone by. Not to mention how fast this whole year has gone by.

TWO THOUSAND AND TEN in just a few days. It seems like it just turned 2000. Have I been asleep the past ten years? I think I must have been.

It's really time for me to wakeup. Seriously.

A rant

This weekend has sucked!